Awakening To Joyful Living
Light musings is a series of (mostly) very short essays, reflections, observations… on the nature of Light and the Lightworker path
Have you noticed how miraculous experiences always come with a great sense of joy? Here’s my miracle story – and some questions for you!
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Purpose as a door to Joy — and my counter-intuitive experiences with structure vs flow is what this video is about.
Here are the resources mentioned in the video:
And here’s a short overview of what the video is about. Please use this as notes for your brain – not a replacement of the video that will speak to your heart and soul as well. 🙂
Here in the Northern part of the world, we’ve entered the darkest part of the year. We have less than 8 hours of daylight, and until the winter solstice on Dec 21, there will be even less of it every day.
This, along with the demands and emotional stress around the upcoming holidays makes this time a challenging one for many people, a dark time in many ways.
You know that feeling you can have in a dream, where darkness prevails, and you feel lost, vulnerable, stumbling your way through it, and not seeing any end to it. No light at the end of the tunnel.
But then again, the light is there, even if we cannot see it.
Imagine that you’re dreaming that dream, and while you are deep asleep, an angel of a kind, or your soul perhaps, or just someone that loves you dearly sits by your side, looking at you with all the love they have in their heart.
What they see is very different from what you experience. They see you, lying safely in a room which is completely bathed with golden light, with love, with joy.
They see you as the light being that you are, creating and living a dream. You dreaming you.
And because they have this wider and lighter perspective, and because they’re awake and see you, they also know that all of it, even the dream that you’re dreaming, the darkness, the confusion, the fear, the helplessness that you feel in the dream –  all that is made of light too.
Because that’s what dreams are made of. Not of stuff but of light.
And perhaps, even as you’re immersed in that deep dream, perhaps you somehow sense that other presence, that other awareness, that light that you know must be there somehow. That’s how you know that this is a dream. And that’s why you feel a desire to wake up.
But because you’re so much in the dream, and because it’s a dense and dark dream, the only way you remember in that moment to actually awaken is to try to open your eyes.
You try and try, but it’s as if your eyelids are glued to your face, and you cannot open them. It feels like there’s nothing you can do, other than dream on. So it seems.
But here’s the good news.
The purpose of an adventure is not to drawn you in darkness. On the contrary.
The purpose of this adventure is to take you into the unknown, through what seems like danger, to challenge you so that you can find what you have been missing all your life.
“To every birth there is the long waiting
For the new life
All light begins in the dark”
~ “Meditations For The Living”
Light can be found in many ways and in many forms. Your adventure however, offers you the ultimate key to it. If you can find the very source of light, the light that begins in the dark, then light will never leave you again, not even in the darkest of times. Because no matter where your eyes turn, and even when they’re closed, you will see light, you will feel light, you will know light.
That’s what awakening really is, for most of us. It’s not leaving the dream, and it’s not being completely conscious in the dream either. It’s living the dream with awareness. It’s awakening to the light in you, in the dream and everywhere, more and more, glimpse by glimpse, wave by wave, day by day.
How does that search for light then translate into your life on Earth, this winter, this month, today? How do you find Light now?
Here are three ways to do it. You can use them combined or pick the one that works for you.
In this dream that we live on Earth your eyes aren’t actually glued. 🙂 It is possible to see light here and there. So focus on light wherever you already see it.
The Finding Light Everywhere Meditation is ready for you below:
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Thoughtless
Present
Mind at peace.
Eyes watching hands
Hand holding knife
Knife cutting carrots
Love seeing itself in the carrot, the knife, the hand, the eyes, the mind
Love overflowing this and all there is
While my human body
Skillfully creates the simplest of meals
Love soup
Later, mind comes back
With the simplest of wishes:
This Love beingness
Being
Earth tomorrow
Many years ago, I came to a place on my spiritual journey that you could call the dark night of the soul. Even if it was me buried in darkness, not my soul at all. 🙂
It wasn’t depression, it wasn’t loneliness, it wasn’t despair or anything like that. It was an experience of being in darkness without a light, without a compass, without any sense of direction whatsoever.
You could call it disillusionment of a kind, a need to ditch absolutely everything I ever learned about the true nature of things. And then to find the real thing.
No spiritual dogma, belief, theory, practice could be trusted. My spiritual foundation (and with that the very meaning of my life) had fallen apart, had dissolved.
The only thing I was certain about was that there was nothing and no one in the outside world that could help me find my way again. Not even the most enlightened teachers or books could show me the truth. How would I even know if it was true or not?
And truth was what I needed. Truth as such, the truth that you can depend on and base your life on, no matter what.
In short, I was desperate for light and there was none to be found. And so all I could do was surrender to darkness.
As I did, and without expecting anything at all, at some point (was it hours? days? I don’t recall), I had a sudden glimpse of deep in-sight. An almost wordless glimpse of light, you could say. And then another glimpse, and another.
These glimpses were born from such a deep place and were so fragile at the same time, that I wasn’t quite sure whether I have finally found my inner, living truth or whether I was just making it all up.
Maybe it was that fear of losing my sanity that made me reach out for a book after all. It was “A Thousand Names for Joy”
At that point I was familiar with The Work (which never quite worked for me, and still doesn’t), but this book was different. Reading small bits and pieces there I found – and what a strange experience that was – the exact words for the truth that I had just experienced within.
If I was going insane then at least there were two of us. And there was nothing about Byron Katie that seemed insane.
She didn’t teach me anything and I know she didn’t attempt to either. But her words gave me some sort of reassurance, and just enough courage to stick to the truth that I had found within and to build on that. This truth of mine has been my solid, evolving foundation ever since. I share it gladly. I know I can trust it.
Now, I’m not like Byron Katie at all. I’m like most of us extraordinary ordinary humans. I have my share of limitations, insecurities, imbalances, forgetfulness… you name it and I can find it in me for sure. I imagine that this is quite true for you too. 🙂
But that doesn’t change the fact that truth and joy and love and light flow through us and want to be expressed and shared as fully as we will let them!
That’s all there is to our “job” as Lightworkers. To be who we are, to be a loving, living, joyful, imperfect reminder of our truth. 🙂
If you want to explore how I can support your unfoldment as your living truth, check out current Lightworker offers here.
I needed to watch this wonderful, old movie again, “Field of Dreams” it’s called (28 years have passed since I’ve seen it the first time? Really?). I needed to see what happened there, and how. Because it feels like I and so many of us these days, are called to build in a similar way. Even if it’s a different field – a field of Love, or a field of Joy…
It’s good to be reminded not only of how the human adventure (and this particular type of adventure even more so) is hardly ever a straight path to a well-defined destination. Like in the film, it’s but a distant voice (or your heart) calling, it’s a hint more than a manual (even if a manual may emerge further down the road).
And yet, vague as it may be, we follow the calling. How can we not follow it when it is so persistent and the need in the world is so evident…
Follow we do, and along the way we gain a little more clarity on what it is there we’re asked to build… And that’s when things begin to feel overwhelming! Because we’re asked to build something we have never created before, at a scale that we would never even consider.
“Why me”? we wonder. Why, among all the people in the world, should I be the one to do this? Surely there are plenty of other people who are far more suited for something like this…
Perhaps because it’s a gift. This challenge, this quest might well be life’s most generous gift to us!
For what a gift it is, to get to work in this field of love, this field of creativity, this field of joy, this field of passion. To get to surrender to it, no matter how terrifying it may seem at times. To build it gladly, fiercely, passionately, with all our heart and all the strength that we can muster. To build it brick by brick…
And to say yes to the greatness of it and the greatness that has been living in us and has been hiding from us.
In this time of titanic challenges, environmental, social and political, the world needs us to come out of hiding and help the deep transformations that must happen, now!
Unbelievable as it may seem at times, this is what is unfolding, this is the calling, and this is the journey ahead. This is how we overcome fear and doubt, this is how we move through difficult transformations of our own and this is how we find ourselves at last, as we find each other, in new ways.
As we change the world changes, and it becomes a Field of Love.
There is an art to approaching trouble and pain and worry.  And the art of it is to feel it fully – and then again not only (that’s why it’s an art!).
We need to feel it fully because we need to be fully with everything that we are. This is the way of self-healing and self-love. This is the way of healing and love as such. It never leaves you, it stays with you, it embraces all that you are.
And then again, in staying and loving and embracing and permeating whatever is there, love remains itself. Love does not become trouble, pain or worry. Love remains love.
Let love be our teacher. Let it teach us the art of love.
Let us embrace and feel fully whatever is there. But then again, let us not lose ourselves in it. Let us also remain and feel the light and the joy that is the very essence of who we truly are.
Not just because it will feel better (and it will!) and certainly not because it’s the right thing to do (love couldn’t care less about right and wrong!) but because it will make a difference.
When we lose connection with light, with joy, with love, with who and what we truly are, our energy flow dies out. Our universe shrinks and gets heavy somehow.
It happens for us, and it also happens for others around us. Because we all live in the same dream.
But when someone in that dream – you and I – reconnects with light and with joy, and in this way reconnects with life itself, then the entire dream comes alive. Energy begins to flow again, changes can happen, creative changes, abundant changes. For ourselves, and for other people in the dream.
Let’s help each other and the world alive and flowing. Every day, let’s keep connecting and reconnecting with light and joy.
I went for a walk yesterday, in between 2 projects I was working on, and when I came down to the beach… oh my God!
Just the vast beach, the sea, the sun and me….(The tourists were gone . I love you tourists, but still…Â 
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I just had to lie down on the sand (which is not what you’d usually do here at this time of the year 
) … The feeling of being carried by the Earth and caressed by the wind and sun…How blessed I felt…
And we can have the same feeling without the beach and the sea and the sun, just contemplating a tiny green leaf on a rainy day… When we open to what is here with that open sense of joy …and there is nothing but that, and gratitude…
It reminds me… Back when I was married almost every morning I would wake up with a feeling of joy and deep gratitude for the man by my side. Naturally, I ascribed the joy to him and our relationship.
But then the day came for our ways to part. 3 very unhappy weeks followed…
And then the morning came when I woke up to the same joy and gratitude as before! In spite of the divorce, the transition, the uncertain future (little did I know that my future would be as fulfilling as it is now).
That’s the true nature of joy (and gratitude). It’s here for no reason, it just flows through us. And when we let it flow like that, it can touch other people too, gently, like a wind, reminding them of the Light that lives within them.