From a certain perspective, the journey of awakening happens through 8 stages. Today, let’s talk about the first of them, our very beginning as human beings. And that means, our first actual experience of love, joy and oneness.
Even if it may not have lasted long we’ve had that experience already! In this way awakening is not really a journey into the unknown (even if it certainly can feel like it). It is a journey of re-discovery, of homecoming. Because…
The journey began with a natural state of love, joy and oneness.
At first the idea might seem like just another theory. I mean, how many of us can remember how it felt to be a baby? Who can confirm that joy and oneness was there at all?
Almost none, you might say. But then, perhaps we do remember without quite realizing it? Here’s how I came to remember and how the memory has been confirmed by my late mother (whose loving and supportive soul I am eternally grateful for today)…
There’s a transcript of the video at the end of this article.
Okay, you might say, but…
How do we know that love, joy and oneness is something we all experienced, not just some of us?
I cannot prove it. But there is an experience which most of us have had and which does confirm it in a way.
If you’ve ever been near a baby (provided it’s fundamental needs have been taken care of), the peace and calm joy emanating from it cannot but affect you. You get a sense of the state the baby is in.
I believe it happens because we all have that peaceful, joyful space within us. It’s where we all come from. Otherwise it wouldn’t resonate within us as deeply as it actually does.
In fact, for most people, being near a young child is the most direct way to get an immediate experience of love, joy and oneness.
It is part of who we are, it’s in our spiritual DNA.
It is still within us, even if we rarely have an immediate access to it.
We all come from that state of joy and oneness. But then, life happens. Separation happens. Pain happens. We have all been kicked out of our paradise. That we remember.
What we don’t necessarily fully realize that it happens for a reason. I’ll be sharing much more about it. For now, let me reassure that the inner paradise is still there within us. And we can indeed find our way back there.
Not all at once, typically, but gradually, along the awakening road. It is a rich, complex and sometimes tremendously challenging journey. But we don’t walk it alone. We have all kinds of helpful people and tools to support us along the way.
If you prefer to work with me individually instead, tell me why here.
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Below is a transcript from the video:
It’s a sunny day long time ago, I’m only 16. We’re on vacation, my mother brother and I. Except, it’s not a vacation. We’re away from home so that our father can pack our things because we are to leave Poland as stateless refugees.
The entire family is like a wandering break-down. I’m 16 and I hate all of it. My mother and I fight all the time and this is one of those fights. I don’t even know what the fight is about, I just know that everything is wrong. In the midst of it she says to me:
“You know, Halina, when you were a little baby, you would wake up smiling and you would fall asleep smiling. What happened to you?“
I don’t know what she is talking about. All I hear is that she’s blaming me, I cannot be me, she doesn’t understand. That’s how it is.
Then life happens and times goes by. I go through therapy, healing and what not.
And now I’m at one of those retreats. We’re being guided back to the first memory in this life.
I go deeper and deeper and deeper, not expecting anything. And all of a sudden…
I know that I’m this little baby, I don’t have words yet. But I don’t feel like a little baby. I feel like endless love, and endless joy and whoever is in my vision is me, and I am them, and that love just flows, there’s nothing else.
And then… I’m being talked back to reality and there I realize that what my mother told me was true.
I was born into a field of love and joy and oneness. We all were. This is who we are. It still lives within us, in this very moment. And there is a way back there.
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